Dream Child:   I’d cross the Rio Grande for you Even if you’ll only come to the shore.   I’ll blend the sky into rainbow hues With an open heart – you can see that and more.   Dream a little. Laugh a little. Dream child. Become your best. I am right here beside you […]

When I was a younger woman I felt as though I had to prove how accomplished I could be.  How smart, how cute, how physically strong, how funny, how bright.  Oh how much grief is coming up today as I realize the race I was engaged in.  The big talk, the big spin, the anger […]

As a child it was so important to me to be loved by my father. I worked so hard  at times pretending that I was perfect.  Sometimes I liked to imagine that I was not just nice, or good, or kind…but great… for a day, a week, or even a month – to show my dad just how […]

Prose   1/18/2017   I cannot tell you why I’m hiding.  I wish I knew. It might be habit or a cause from unknown regret. Emotions are difficult for me to see at first, so I begin guessing: Maybe I’m embarrassed, or lonely, or uncertain. I watch the the news as it blares out about […]

Maybe you’ve had that experience where you just want to talk about your experiences without ‘it’ being fixed?  I do believe there is need to just be heard and I have a strong commitment to this as part of our healing journeys. One thing I realize is how much I really appreciate when someone truly listens to […]

Oh my.  Yes, it is that time of year.  I always forget, or I maybe I think, oh this year will be better. What  do I feel?  There is some numbness; and as I breathe in there is a memory for me that this time of year nothing ever feels quite right.  There is a terrifying feeling […]

  I have been in recovery from my personal history with sexual abuse for 32 years.   And still new memories surface. What are the symptoms I have when I am having memories reappear?   Irritability, overeating (especially craving carbohydrates and sugars) and physical symptoms.  My physical symptoms vary from one memory to another, I’ve had weakness […]

 Step Two: Believing Your Own Truth. How many times have I heard the following question: “If it’s true, why did they wait so long to talk about it? Why didn’t they come forward at the time?” In my own healing work this question was asked of me a lot – especially by family members and […]

Unhealed rage. The incidents that created trauma for us, leave more than an imprint. Oftentimes emotions connected to these events can boil up unexpectedly as pure, unrelenting rage – at the snap of a finger. My father (and then my future boyfriends too) could say ‘something’, a small trigger, that would collapse any calm, insightful […]

Anyone else out there getting triggered by the rape allegations being tossed between our political candidates?  i have released emotions running the range from anger, fear, sadness, loneliness, and abandonment the past few weeks, emotions that have been stirred up by their revealing dialogue.  I hope anyone who is subject to flashbacks as I am, […]